But I know if I don't post my favorite SMIB will be pestering me on facebook.
We've been to Hershey Park twice now. It is so much fun. At the entrance to the park, they have an area where kids can measure themselves to see how tall they are. Each height section has a name of a Hershey candy. This year, Wyatt graduated to Reeces PB Cups. He is SO excited. Every time we visit, I take his picture in front of the measuring thing-y. That way, if he gets lost or something, I have a recent picture, as well as a way to remember what he's wearing. And, they can see how tall he is. Possibly a little over protective. But, I'm mom, it's my right ;)
Poor kid, yesterday, he was SO tired, that he looked at me, said "Mom, can I take a nap?", put his head down, and was out. For hours. He doesn't have a whole lot going on this summer, but it's enough to wear the boy out. I think I will have to make it a point to have one day a week where we don't go anywhere. No camp, no store, no Hershey...just home. Of course, it would be nice if the pool water cooperated. I even took a sample to the pool store, they gave me stuff to fix it....and it still doesn't look swim friendly. I will give it another day and go back.
I'm feeling the itch to go to MD for a few days. Not just overnight, as I have been doing, but long enough to really see everyone. I think I am in desperate need of girl time. And time with MY girls. Not that my friends in PA aren't great friends, but...they're not Trish, and Brenda, and Nikki, and, yes, even you Steph. And besides, there is no Swampwater in PA. (Trust me, I've looked)
Today I am going bra shopping. Blech. Really not terribly exciting. I hate it. I never find anything that fits well, and looks cute, and is confortable. I'm going to start just wearing those bra tanks. Who cares if my ta-tas are at my knees? It will be comfy.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Just one line
OK, so you spend less than a dollar on something that's sole purpose it to be peed on. And you take it home, wait until morning, and pee on it. Then when that stick only shows one pink line, you can't help it. You get mad at it. Like it's the stick's fault your body doesn't do what it's supposed to.
I can say that, once the initial disappointment passes, I am secure in the knowledge that things are going to be ok. First, the disappointment is getting easier to deal with. It just doesn't hurt as much anymore.
My mom asked me the other day if I was mad and frustrated that I'm not getting pregnant. I told her I'm not. And that's not a lie. I have such a comfort in the fact that God has a plan. She asked if I was angry that I conceived so easily before. I just chose to laugh about it. It's hard to be angry about something that brought me love. Sure, there are times that I wonder why I was able to conceive so easily before, but I don't ever get angry. I have learned enough to know that I will appreciate pregnancy so much more. And, really, if Randy and I were going through a pregnancy or infancy when we had these marital problems, I don't know that we would have made it. And, I'm learning SO much more about the kind of pregnancy, childbirth, and infant raising that I want to have. I think if I had gotten pregnant when we started trying, I wouldn't be so well informed. So, the wait is coming in handy.
In the meantime, this video really speaks to me.
I can say that, once the initial disappointment passes, I am secure in the knowledge that things are going to be ok. First, the disappointment is getting easier to deal with. It just doesn't hurt as much anymore.
My mom asked me the other day if I was mad and frustrated that I'm not getting pregnant. I told her I'm not. And that's not a lie. I have such a comfort in the fact that God has a plan. She asked if I was angry that I conceived so easily before. I just chose to laugh about it. It's hard to be angry about something that brought me love. Sure, there are times that I wonder why I was able to conceive so easily before, but I don't ever get angry. I have learned enough to know that I will appreciate pregnancy so much more. And, really, if Randy and I were going through a pregnancy or infancy when we had these marital problems, I don't know that we would have made it. And, I'm learning SO much more about the kind of pregnancy, childbirth, and infant raising that I want to have. I think if I had gotten pregnant when we started trying, I wouldn't be so well informed. So, the wait is coming in handy.
In the meantime, this video really speaks to me.
Friday, June 25, 2010
Morning, interrupted
So I woke up at 3 am this morning. No idea why. But I just couldn't go back to sleep. I finally gave up and got out of bed to play on Facebook. (Although, I must say, I balanced the check book first, so I was responsible! Plus I had to t-fer money from savings to cover Barnum's vet bills) Well, I sat here thinking...I really should take advantage of all the beautiful scenery and sit on my patio furniture with my coffee to watch the sunrise. Does it get any more peaceful than that??
The answer to that, my friends, is YES. It gets much more peaceful. Because, you see, there, on the pretty blue and yellow cusion, was a spider. Now I know that spider was sitting there, waiting. Waiting for my pre-caffeinated self to not notice it and plop right down, where it would promptly bite me in the ass and kill me. And really, I refuse to die before I've had my coffee. So Mrs. Outdoors came in. See, this is why I must have a camper to camp. No tents for me! Can you make a tent spider proof? I think not
Hey, did you know that my kid is the cutest EVER? Yesterday, he was playing with his legos, trying to build a fire truck. This is what I heard: "On the third day, God created a steering wheel. And He liked it". Ahhh...so sweet. He comes up with stuff all the time that is SO smart. And lately he has really been a different kid. His behavior is SO much better. He cleans up after himself, I only need to ask him once. (Bear in mind, this is after weeks of throwing away toys that he didn't pick up....In reality, they were donated, but he thinks they were thrown away)
It appears we are going to be moving to SC with a zoo. That's right, a zoo. 3 cats, 2 fish, a snail, a frog and 4 dogs. FOUR dogs. We have been petsitting a friends Golden Retriever until he can find an apartment that will let him keep Sam. Well, said friend and I were talking, and I jokingly told him he was going to have to figure out how to make visitations work if it was across state lines. He said "Well, I guess I'll have to drive to SC". Uh, I wasn't serious, it's your dog! But, well, I guess now I have a step-dog. He's such a sweetie that I really don't mind. Now, I know what you're thinking. Mocha, Rascal, and Sam. That's 3 dogs. I said 4. Well, do you remember our puppy Sam? (Clearly, a very different Sam than the one we have now) His mom just had puppies. Yesterday, in fact. And, one of them is ours :) I am getting a girl this time around. I am getting way too outnumbered around here. And I'm excited!!! :) Hey, I warned you people. So what, I didnt' wait 6 months? Randy feeds into it....He's the one who wanted Georgie, the kitten. So there!
I think, when we move (or maybe before that) I'm going to look into becoming a midwife. Too many moms don't have the birthing options they want. I know that when I do get pregnant again, I want to deliver in a birthing center, instead of a hospital. I'd really like to deliver at home, but I don't know that anyone would allow that. It may be too risky. So, I will settle for a birthing center. I'd like to do a water birth. I've heard such wonderful things. But, I digress. SC does allow midwifery, so....I am going to look into it :)
The answer to that, my friends, is YES. It gets much more peaceful. Because, you see, there, on the pretty blue and yellow cusion, was a spider. Now I know that spider was sitting there, waiting. Waiting for my pre-caffeinated self to not notice it and plop right down, where it would promptly bite me in the ass and kill me. And really, I refuse to die before I've had my coffee. So Mrs. Outdoors came in. See, this is why I must have a camper to camp. No tents for me! Can you make a tent spider proof? I think not
Hey, did you know that my kid is the cutest EVER? Yesterday, he was playing with his legos, trying to build a fire truck. This is what I heard: "On the third day, God created a steering wheel. And He liked it". Ahhh...so sweet. He comes up with stuff all the time that is SO smart. And lately he has really been a different kid. His behavior is SO much better. He cleans up after himself, I only need to ask him once. (Bear in mind, this is after weeks of throwing away toys that he didn't pick up....In reality, they were donated, but he thinks they were thrown away)
It appears we are going to be moving to SC with a zoo. That's right, a zoo. 3 cats, 2 fish, a snail, a frog and 4 dogs. FOUR dogs. We have been petsitting a friends Golden Retriever until he can find an apartment that will let him keep Sam. Well, said friend and I were talking, and I jokingly told him he was going to have to figure out how to make visitations work if it was across state lines. He said "Well, I guess I'll have to drive to SC". Uh, I wasn't serious, it's your dog! But, well, I guess now I have a step-dog. He's such a sweetie that I really don't mind. Now, I know what you're thinking. Mocha, Rascal, and Sam. That's 3 dogs. I said 4. Well, do you remember our puppy Sam? (Clearly, a very different Sam than the one we have now) His mom just had puppies. Yesterday, in fact. And, one of them is ours :) I am getting a girl this time around. I am getting way too outnumbered around here. And I'm excited!!! :) Hey, I warned you people. So what, I didnt' wait 6 months? Randy feeds into it....He's the one who wanted Georgie, the kitten. So there!
I think, when we move (or maybe before that) I'm going to look into becoming a midwife. Too many moms don't have the birthing options they want. I know that when I do get pregnant again, I want to deliver in a birthing center, instead of a hospital. I'd really like to deliver at home, but I don't know that anyone would allow that. It may be too risky. So, I will settle for a birthing center. I'd like to do a water birth. I've heard such wonderful things. But, I digress. SC does allow midwifery, so....I am going to look into it :)
Worst. Cat. Mom. EVER
OK, so Barnum has been limping for several weeks now. He's had a wound, and it just wouldnt' heal. (Needless to say, Barnum and Bailey are inside cats again) So...I took him to the vet.
And it's infected. Not a little infected. The vet said it was the largest abcess she's ever seen. And that, she couldnt' be certain without an xray, but she thought it went to the bone. Apparently, little patches of healing skin had grown over/around some of the infection, so on top of the main abcess, there were lots of little infection patches. WHY didn't I take him in sooner? I just kept thinking it would heal. Ugh...terrible, I tell ya...Just terrible! Poor kitty.
But, just since he went yesterday, he has been more playful than he had gotten. At least he's on the road to recovery!
And it's infected. Not a little infected. The vet said it was the largest abcess she's ever seen. And that, she couldnt' be certain without an xray, but she thought it went to the bone. Apparently, little patches of healing skin had grown over/around some of the infection, so on top of the main abcess, there were lots of little infection patches. WHY didn't I take him in sooner? I just kept thinking it would heal. Ugh...terrible, I tell ya...Just terrible! Poor kitty.
But, just since he went yesterday, he has been more playful than he had gotten. At least he's on the road to recovery!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
You can't say you weren't warned....
I would like to introduce you to Georgie, our new kitten. She looks like a Georgia Peach.
Yes, yes I know. We are nuts. Certifiable. We have a house on the market, 2 bio dogs, a step dog, 2 bio cats, a puppy in 10 weeks, and now...Georgie. I'm a sucker. And I'm Still. Not. Pregnant. So, yeah, I got a new "baby".
She's very sweet. Of course, I have to take her to the vet for de-worming and all that. I will make an appt for her when I take Barnum tomorrow to get his paw looked at.
Apparently, I've been missed!
I have not one single special thing to type. Yet, some crazy woman is hounding me on facebook to update, so....here it is.
My house has, actually, stayed clean the past few days. Which is good, because I got one of those "Someone wants to come see your house and they can be there in an hour" kind of calls yesterday. Which is good. I was stressing that noone had wanted to see it yet.
Hey, did you know coffee can be bad for you? I had my coffee delivery yesterday (not a big deal, really...we order it so we can get the flavors we want and it's cheaper) Well, as I was coming inside, the screen door slammed on the back of my foot. It was NOT pretty, and I am not proud of my reaction, or the things I said in front of Wyatt. Oops.
Sooo....I'm thinking about getting a membership to one of the local pools. Yes, we just got season passes to Hershey Park, but there are days, like today, where if we go, we have to be home early because one of us has to work. And I don't want to tear Wyatt away from having fun. That's just too stressful. So, the pool would be a perfect solution. I hate that Wyatt wants to stay inside and play Wii or on the computer. Get out! Play!
We are going to SC in a couple of weeks. I think we need another vacation though. That's not really going to be a good one....we have too much we HAVE to do down there for it to really count, ya know? I'm thinking maybe Williamsburg in the Fall. The downside to that is if we are in SC, Randy will have just started a new job (hopefully) and it's too soon to ask for time off. (Can I take a minute to point out a benefit to homeschooling? A vacation to Williamsburg becomes a field trip. Ha!)
I cannot believe how easy Weight Watchers is! I have "cheated" a few times, and I'm still losing weight. It almost seems like a no fail diet. I don't go to meetings, I just do the online stuff. I may start going though, just for the socialization with other (non EMS) grown ups. And, I'm joining the Y. (What do you mean you 've heard that before? I don't know what you're talking about)
Thank GOODNESS for the autosave feature, since Wyatt just turned the computer off accidently. If this wasn't autosaved, there would be no blog today.
Well, Randy and I talked while the computer was restarting, and we decided to just go buy a blow up pool to keep here. Not a dinky 2 or 3 ring one, maybe one of those that has the ring you blow up, and the more water you add, the higher the ring goes...I don't know. I guess we're going to go look.
On that note, I need to go get the cat unstuck from the chair. *Sigh* Our next house will have a padded room
My house has, actually, stayed clean the past few days. Which is good, because I got one of those "Someone wants to come see your house and they can be there in an hour" kind of calls yesterday. Which is good. I was stressing that noone had wanted to see it yet.
Hey, did you know coffee can be bad for you? I had my coffee delivery yesterday (not a big deal, really...we order it so we can get the flavors we want and it's cheaper) Well, as I was coming inside, the screen door slammed on the back of my foot. It was NOT pretty, and I am not proud of my reaction, or the things I said in front of Wyatt. Oops.
Sooo....I'm thinking about getting a membership to one of the local pools. Yes, we just got season passes to Hershey Park, but there are days, like today, where if we go, we have to be home early because one of us has to work. And I don't want to tear Wyatt away from having fun. That's just too stressful. So, the pool would be a perfect solution. I hate that Wyatt wants to stay inside and play Wii or on the computer. Get out! Play!
We are going to SC in a couple of weeks. I think we need another vacation though. That's not really going to be a good one....we have too much we HAVE to do down there for it to really count, ya know? I'm thinking maybe Williamsburg in the Fall. The downside to that is if we are in SC, Randy will have just started a new job (hopefully) and it's too soon to ask for time off. (Can I take a minute to point out a benefit to homeschooling? A vacation to Williamsburg becomes a field trip. Ha!)
I cannot believe how easy Weight Watchers is! I have "cheated" a few times, and I'm still losing weight. It almost seems like a no fail diet. I don't go to meetings, I just do the online stuff. I may start going though, just for the socialization with other (non EMS) grown ups. And, I'm joining the Y. (What do you mean you 've heard that before? I don't know what you're talking about)
Thank GOODNESS for the autosave feature, since Wyatt just turned the computer off accidently. If this wasn't autosaved, there would be no blog today.
Well, Randy and I talked while the computer was restarting, and we decided to just go buy a blow up pool to keep here. Not a dinky 2 or 3 ring one, maybe one of those that has the ring you blow up, and the more water you add, the higher the ring goes...I don't know. I guess we're going to go look.
On that note, I need to go get the cat unstuck from the chair. *Sigh* Our next house will have a padded room
Saturday, June 19, 2010
Diets and all that crap
It's not like Weight Watchers is a difficult diet. So why am I having so many problems sticking with it? I'll tell you why...It's that dreaded shift work. We get a call at 3am, my partner wants hot dogs from Sheetz, and I get nothing. I don't even LIKE hot dogs, but at 3 am, they look so yummy...and smelling them makes my tummy rumble. However, watching said partner snarf them down does make them slightly less appealing. I could very easily get something if I wanted, but I know those points would taste so much better being spent on ice cream in the afternoon. Besides, isn't it all about learning better eating habits? See, really, being a stay at home mom is better for my health!!!
Plus, I'd get to wear flip flops. All. The. Time.
So, apparently, 5 is an appropriate age to just drop kids off at a birthday party. Who knew? Last week, one of the moms asked me what time she should be back to pick up her son. I looked at her in confusion. Wait, you're leaving? There are 20 kids here! What if all their moms left? Dont' leave. That's not allowed. So I asked another mom last night what she thought. "Sure!" she said. "At Tanner's party, we are planning on the kids getting dropped off". But....but...they are FIVE. I don't know that I'm ok with that. Especially for an outside party. Not that we aren't in a safe area, but THAT many kids? Really? Can you keep an eye on every single one? There are some days I can keep an eye on one 5 year old, much less an entire gaggle of them. This mom will be a guest at Tanner's party, make no mistake about that.
Speaking of 5 year olds, does mine ever sleep? I love love LOVE summer. But I hate the fact that it's still light at 9:30 ("Mommy, I can't go to sleep, it's still daytime!) and his little internal clock is set to wake him up at 7:00. Unless we have plans. If we have plans, he will inevitably sleep until 5 minutes after we are due to leave the house.
Well, our house is officially listed. Pictures and all. I can't wait to get to S.C. and househunt down there. I'm hoping we can get the house we have our eye on (My dad's 2nd house) He's turning it over to the bank at the end of this month, so it will be listed even cheaper than it is now. I wonder if we can put a contract on a bank owned house? I don't know how that works. Do they even do contingency contracts anymore? I just don't want to lose it because we are waiting for our house to sell. That is MY Dad's house you would live next to, Buster! MINE! Our house has only been listed for a couple of days, but we haven't had ANY showings. Not one. The first couple of weeks should be almost non stop! And it's listed at a great price. I really want to be settled by this fall, so that IF we send Wyatt to school, he can start with the rest of his class. SC just has stricter homeschool laws, so I'm not sure how that would play out. More research is required. From what I can tell, there are more resources for homeschooling parents. We shall see.
Until another day, my pretties.....
(Oh, and that other day probably won't be tomorrow. I work uber late tonight, and church in the morning. What? No, I don't recall making any promise to blog every day. Don't be silly)
Plus, I'd get to wear flip flops. All. The. Time.
So, apparently, 5 is an appropriate age to just drop kids off at a birthday party. Who knew? Last week, one of the moms asked me what time she should be back to pick up her son. I looked at her in confusion. Wait, you're leaving? There are 20 kids here! What if all their moms left? Dont' leave. That's not allowed. So I asked another mom last night what she thought. "Sure!" she said. "At Tanner's party, we are planning on the kids getting dropped off". But....but...they are FIVE. I don't know that I'm ok with that. Especially for an outside party. Not that we aren't in a safe area, but THAT many kids? Really? Can you keep an eye on every single one? There are some days I can keep an eye on one 5 year old, much less an entire gaggle of them. This mom will be a guest at Tanner's party, make no mistake about that.
Speaking of 5 year olds, does mine ever sleep? I love love LOVE summer. But I hate the fact that it's still light at 9:30 ("Mommy, I can't go to sleep, it's still daytime!) and his little internal clock is set to wake him up at 7:00. Unless we have plans. If we have plans, he will inevitably sleep until 5 minutes after we are due to leave the house.
Well, our house is officially listed. Pictures and all. I can't wait to get to S.C. and househunt down there. I'm hoping we can get the house we have our eye on (My dad's 2nd house) He's turning it over to the bank at the end of this month, so it will be listed even cheaper than it is now. I wonder if we can put a contract on a bank owned house? I don't know how that works. Do they even do contingency contracts anymore? I just don't want to lose it because we are waiting for our house to sell. That is MY Dad's house you would live next to, Buster! MINE! Our house has only been listed for a couple of days, but we haven't had ANY showings. Not one. The first couple of weeks should be almost non stop! And it's listed at a great price. I really want to be settled by this fall, so that IF we send Wyatt to school, he can start with the rest of his class. SC just has stricter homeschool laws, so I'm not sure how that would play out. More research is required. From what I can tell, there are more resources for homeschooling parents. We shall see.
Until another day, my pretties.....
(Oh, and that other day probably won't be tomorrow. I work uber late tonight, and church in the morning. What? No, I don't recall making any promise to blog every day. Don't be silly)
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Shoes
Anyone who knows me knows that I am not a fan of shoes. If I have to wear anything, it's flip flops. And let me just tell you, I have flip flops in every color.
Now, I love my job. It's exciting (sometimes) and I get to feel like I made a difference (sometimes) But, I have to wear shoes. Not just any shoes, but steel toe boots. And these, my friend, are not flip flops. Can't someone somehow invent an OSHA compliant flip flop? It has to be possible.
I am horrible at decision making. We all know (and love) this about me. You do love it. And if you don't, shut up and pretend. Well, my wonderful husband is just as bad. And, if he's in the process of attempting a decision, don't give him more options! I was joking with him about some things friends had said (like "Why are you moving to SC? At least if it was the beach I would understand") So now the man wants to look at properties in Myrtle Beach. Does anyone have that target that I can tape to the desk, so I know exactly where to bang my head? Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't mind living at the beach. It's still closer to my dad, easily affordable, but we will have to give up some land. But it's the BEACH! I can so live at the beach. Now, anyone want to place bets on how long it will take us to make a decision? I'm praying our house sells quickly, so we can move and get settled before school starts. If not, I can easily transfer homeschooling stuff :)
Now, I love my job. It's exciting (sometimes) and I get to feel like I made a difference (sometimes) But, I have to wear shoes. Not just any shoes, but steel toe boots. And these, my friend, are not flip flops. Can't someone somehow invent an OSHA compliant flip flop? It has to be possible.
I am horrible at decision making. We all know (and love) this about me. You do love it. And if you don't, shut up and pretend. Well, my wonderful husband is just as bad. And, if he's in the process of attempting a decision, don't give him more options! I was joking with him about some things friends had said (like "Why are you moving to SC? At least if it was the beach I would understand") So now the man wants to look at properties in Myrtle Beach. Does anyone have that target that I can tape to the desk, so I know exactly where to bang my head? Don't get me wrong, I wouldn't mind living at the beach. It's still closer to my dad, easily affordable, but we will have to give up some land. But it's the BEACH! I can so live at the beach. Now, anyone want to place bets on how long it will take us to make a decision? I'm praying our house sells quickly, so we can move and get settled before school starts. If not, I can easily transfer homeschooling stuff :)
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Changes (seem familiar?)
Well, Randy approached me the other day. He's not happy here. He's happy with me (and, um, how could he not be???). He's just not happy here. So he started talking about moving BACK to Dillsburg, or buying the house that my dad is selling. I told him it's totally up to him. Of course, I gave him imput. But, one of my biggest stressors has been that I feel I've made all the major decisions. So this one is his. I'm trying to support him and NOT speak my mind too much...Because I know he will change his mind if he thinks I disagree. This is a big step for us, on multiple levels...
Contrary to what some people believe, if we go to SC, we are not leaving them!! It will be a big lifestyle change for us, but it will give me some more spare time, too. I'm not putting the details of what I want on here, until Randy tells me for sure what he's decided. But then, my pretties, you will all know!
I'm getting that itch....I want a puppy, or a kitten, or a baby SOMETHING. 6 more months, and if there's not a mini me growing, I will get a puppy. But I'm giving it 6 months of the mood altering drugs. My poor husband.
Contrary to what some people believe, if we go to SC, we are not leaving them!! It will be a big lifestyle change for us, but it will give me some more spare time, too. I'm not putting the details of what I want on here, until Randy tells me for sure what he's decided. But then, my pretties, you will all know!
I'm getting that itch....I want a puppy, or a kitten, or a baby SOMETHING. 6 more months, and if there's not a mini me growing, I will get a puppy. But I'm giving it 6 months of the mood altering drugs. My poor husband.
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Ramblings
Have I ever mentioned that I'm indecisive? I'm not sure that I have. HA! Well, the skirts are still hanging in the closet. Yes, that's right. In the closet. Not on me. Unless it's Sunday. I took the jeans and shorts right back out of storage. I just couldn't do it. Maybe I will switch a little more gradually. I dunno, maybe not. You know, I'm me. I don't have to fit into someone else's mold. I can homeschool in jeans, people! And I can cut my hair if I want to. (Not that I do want to, because people will hurt me, but you know, I *could*)
I really shouldn't blog at 1:30am. I really should learn to fall asleep when we get back from middle of the night calls. Then again, people really should learn to use 911 for (say it with me) e-mer-gen-cies. Really, is it that difficult of a concept to grasp? Clearly, yes, it is. *sigh I'm in the middle of 3 night shifts in a row. Not a huge deal, unless you're up with a4 year old 5 year old all day. And tomorrow (today) I have a JILLION things to do. Yes, a jillion. And, no, I can't count that high.
I keep trying to tell myself it's pointless to stay on my diet this week, with Wyatt's birthday and everything else going on. And, you know, if I'm not on my diet, I can have all the coffee and creamer I want. :) Did I mention the nightshift thing? And my last nightshift is a 16 hour shift. How does that work? Oh yeah, with coffee :)
See...I can't even decide to stay on my diet. But I will. Stay on it, I mean. Well, I'll go back on it. This is just a bad week. Lots going on. I know, I said that already. I need sleep. That's a bad thing to say in the emergency services world, as I have now guaranteed myself to not get any.
I really shouldn't blog at 1:30am. I really should learn to fall asleep when we get back from middle of the night calls. Then again, people really should learn to use 911 for (say it with me) e-mer-gen-cies. Really, is it that difficult of a concept to grasp? Clearly, yes, it is. *sigh I'm in the middle of 3 night shifts in a row. Not a huge deal, unless you're up with a
I keep trying to tell myself it's pointless to stay on my diet this week, with Wyatt's birthday and everything else going on. And, you know, if I'm not on my diet, I can have all the coffee and creamer I want. :) Did I mention the nightshift thing? And my last nightshift is a 16 hour shift. How does that work? Oh yeah, with coffee :)
See...I can't even decide to stay on my diet. But I will. Stay on it, I mean. Well, I'll go back on it. This is just a bad week. Lots going on. I know, I said that already. I need sleep. That's a bad thing to say in the emergency services world, as I have now guaranteed myself to not get any.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
5 years ago today....
at this very moment, they were starting the medications that would bring my son into this world.
I remember them handing me this tiny little bundle and thinking he was so perfect. When they took him to weigh him, and my best friend said she was going to take pictures of my son, well, that's when I lost it. Tears everywhere.
Today, I look at that not so tiny bundle, and I am amazed by how smart, kind and handsome he is. In the last year, he has taught himself to read, has learned how to add and subtract, can count to 500, and the list goes on. If he thinks you are having a bad day, he puts his head on your shoulder and scratches your back. He makes me laugh constantly.
That little boy is such an incredible blessing to me. I thank God everyday for giving him to me.
Happy birthday, Wyatt!!
I remember them handing me this tiny little bundle and thinking he was so perfect. When they took him to weigh him, and my best friend said she was going to take pictures of my son, well, that's when I lost it. Tears everywhere.
Today, I look at that not so tiny bundle, and I am amazed by how smart, kind and handsome he is. In the last year, he has taught himself to read, has learned how to add and subtract, can count to 500, and the list goes on. If he thinks you are having a bad day, he puts his head on your shoulder and scratches your back. He makes me laugh constantly.
That little boy is such an incredible blessing to me. I thank God everyday for giving him to me.
Happy birthday, Wyatt!!
Saturday, June 5, 2010
Femininity/modesty
Well, I did it. Yesterday, I went to the thrift store. I came home with 6 long skirts. Then, I packed up my jeans and shorts and put them in storage. I know, I know, nuts, right? Well, like homeschooling...I gotta stop talking about it and just do it. Boy, those Nike people sure knew what they were talking about.
The truth is, I feel so much more feminine in skirts. I don't mind them at all. This is one of those things that I know some of my friends and family will comment on. And you know, let 'em. I'm not doing this to please anyone (including Randy) but myself. I really feel drawn to wear the longer skirts and dresses. They are cute...And they make me feel good about myself. Noone told me to do this, it's something I chose for myself.
Well, I have a pen pal. One of my online groups set up a pen pal exchange list. I'm excited! It's so nice to get a handwritten letter. Its way more personal than getting an email. I feel like it comes from the heart just a touch more.
I can't believe that in 3 short days Wyatt will be 5. Really, where does the time go?
I have so much I should be getting done tomorrow after church. But, one of my best friends is moving to FL on Tuesday, so I'm going to spend the day with her. Monday Wyatt and I will be home, so I can get so much done then. We have no plans to go anywhere, thank goodness.
Clearly, I don't have much to say today. I'm kinda sleepy. We had a big storm last night, and lightning hit 2 of our trees. Between the dogs and Wyatt, I had no space left on my lap! Then I had to get up at 4 for work this morning. I'm tired and not all here...not that that is any different than any other day!
The truth is, I feel so much more feminine in skirts. I don't mind them at all. This is one of those things that I know some of my friends and family will comment on. And you know, let 'em. I'm not doing this to please anyone (including Randy) but myself. I really feel drawn to wear the longer skirts and dresses. They are cute...And they make me feel good about myself. Noone told me to do this, it's something I chose for myself.
Well, I have a pen pal. One of my online groups set up a pen pal exchange list. I'm excited! It's so nice to get a handwritten letter. Its way more personal than getting an email. I feel like it comes from the heart just a touch more.
I can't believe that in 3 short days Wyatt will be 5. Really, where does the time go?
I have so much I should be getting done tomorrow after church. But, one of my best friends is moving to FL on Tuesday, so I'm going to spend the day with her. Monday Wyatt and I will be home, so I can get so much done then. We have no plans to go anywhere, thank goodness.
Clearly, I don't have much to say today. I'm kinda sleepy. We had a big storm last night, and lightning hit 2 of our trees. Between the dogs and Wyatt, I had no space left on my lap! Then I had to get up at 4 for work this morning. I'm tired and not all here...not that that is any different than any other day!
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Call me OCD, I'm ok with that :)
Although it certainly is an ongoing process, my Home Keepers' Notebook is certainly well under way. And wow...I feel uber organized! I have a master to do list, a section for weekly planners, a section for weekly menu plans, a section for daily to dos, a section for my checklists, a section for recipes, a section for bill paying, a section for articles of interest, and a section for misc. And, of course, come fall, there will be a section for lesson plans. Although, maybe I will have a separate Homeschooling notebook. Hmmm...That actually gets me excited, lol. My daily to do list is even broken down into sections. Go figure. I don't know where I get this from, but I do think sometimes that it borders on a disease! LOL
I really can't wait until I am only working overnights. I was home yesterday, and not tired, and I got SO MUCH done. I really felt accomplished. I could look at my house, and not be embarassed if someone came over. Not that anyone ever does, but I feel like I can relax so much better when my house isn't cluttered and messy. Mind you, with an almost 5 year old, there's always a mess, but that's ok. That I can deal with. And Wyatt is getting so much better about cleaning up after himself. Of course, I'm getting better about giving him a good example to follow. And I'm following through with discipline, so that makes a difference.
Well, after talking to many many people, I think I'm going to go with My Fathers World for homeschooling next year. It seems fairly simple to organize/follow, without being easy. I still want to look into Abeka, but I have time yet. I should do that while I'm at work today. Abeka tends to be a bit more advanced from my understanding. Which is NOT a bad thing! That's why I'm homeschooling :)
Well, we had another earthquake this morning. This was the largest one yet, 3.1. Which I know still isn't huge in the grand scheme of things, but, it shook the station. And then the phone started ringing and it hasn't stopped!
I really can't wait until I am only working overnights. I was home yesterday, and not tired, and I got SO MUCH done. I really felt accomplished. I could look at my house, and not be embarassed if someone came over. Not that anyone ever does, but I feel like I can relax so much better when my house isn't cluttered and messy. Mind you, with an almost 5 year old, there's always a mess, but that's ok. That I can deal with. And Wyatt is getting so much better about cleaning up after himself. Of course, I'm getting better about giving him a good example to follow. And I'm following through with discipline, so that makes a difference.
Well, after talking to many many people, I think I'm going to go with My Fathers World for homeschooling next year. It seems fairly simple to organize/follow, without being easy. I still want to look into Abeka, but I have time yet. I should do that while I'm at work today. Abeka tends to be a bit more advanced from my understanding. Which is NOT a bad thing! That's why I'm homeschooling :)
Well, we had another earthquake this morning. This was the largest one yet, 3.1. Which I know still isn't huge in the grand scheme of things, but, it shook the station. And then the phone started ringing and it hasn't stopped!
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Pajama Day
This is the greatest of all days. We have been so busy lately and running around so much, that I have declared today Pajama Day. I still have tons to do around the house, but that's ok. I can do it in my pajamas.
Get this....I'm back to wanting to Homeschool. I know, you think you're slapping yourself in the head? How do you think I feel? How do you think Randy feels? Lots of prayer, thought, and research went into the decision. Yes, there are days I'd like to get a break, but I didn't become a mom for the break.
This weekend I will be joining the gym. There's just no other place around here for me to walk/jog. I say jog, but I really need to work my way up to jogging. It will happen. I know it will. I think it will.
I ended up working yesterday. I really do love my job. I get sick of the drama, but with an I Pod and a book, I don't have to deal with it. No 2 days are the same. Yesterday we spent almost an hour looking for a house that was 2 counties away. Ya just gotta laugh.
Before I got called into work, I met with a wonderful woman from church. She was able to offer such great insite to so many issues that have been weighing heavily on my mind lately. I really feel that God puts people into your life for a reason.
I really have a lot to get done. Now that I'm past that crampy part, that means I can have coffee, right? I am soooo sleepy. And coffee sounds soooo good. And I've been staying under my points, so I really can have some. I will just cut the coffee out when my cycle is getting ready to start. It's been so nice to not have those horrendous pains this month. I will chalk it up to the lack of caffeine.
I know I really haven't written anything exciting today, but there isn't anything to write about. I am just trying to keep up the habit.
Speaking of habits, Mr. Keurig is feeling neglected
Get this....I'm back to wanting to Homeschool. I know, you think you're slapping yourself in the head? How do you think I feel? How do you think Randy feels? Lots of prayer, thought, and research went into the decision. Yes, there are days I'd like to get a break, but I didn't become a mom for the break.
This weekend I will be joining the gym. There's just no other place around here for me to walk/jog. I say jog, but I really need to work my way up to jogging. It will happen. I know it will. I think it will.
I ended up working yesterday. I really do love my job. I get sick of the drama, but with an I Pod and a book, I don't have to deal with it. No 2 days are the same. Yesterday we spent almost an hour looking for a house that was 2 counties away. Ya just gotta laugh.
Before I got called into work, I met with a wonderful woman from church. She was able to offer such great insite to so many issues that have been weighing heavily on my mind lately. I really feel that God puts people into your life for a reason.
I really have a lot to get done. Now that I'm past that crampy part, that means I can have coffee, right? I am soooo sleepy. And coffee sounds soooo good. And I've been staying under my points, so I really can have some. I will just cut the coffee out when my cycle is getting ready to start. It's been so nice to not have those horrendous pains this month. I will chalk it up to the lack of caffeine.
I know I really haven't written anything exciting today, but there isn't anything to write about. I am just trying to keep up the habit.
Speaking of habits, Mr. Keurig is feeling neglected
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
*Yawn
So, I get up early most mornings to have some time to myself. Some people think I'm nuts, but I really need it. By the time Wyatt goes to bed, I'm exhausted! And I really have found that when I do that, I have a better day. Usually I get up about 5:30. That gives me time to do my morning devotional, along with whatever I need to do on the computer. Now, have I mentioned that I gave up coffee? Yes, yes, sad but true. No need to recoil from your computer screen in horror. (And no, cleaning the screen won't take away the words...not that I tried that or anything) There are a couple of reasons. The first is that, by the time I calculated points, coffee seemed to take up a good bit of my point allowance! Man...that could be a piece of chocolate later in the day. Another reason is that the doctor thinks that will help with the severe PMS I've been getting. (And when I say severe...HA! Noone is safe) And, actually, as I type this...I can tell you that (probably too much info) this cycle really hasn't been bad. I'd been getting cramps so horrific that I would curl up around a heating pad at night and just cry all night long. (And this is after taking meds). Hmmm...that didn't happen this time. Anyway, I digress....There was another good....OH! The whole trying to conceive thing. Not that I think you shouldn't have caffeine when you're pregnant, but, if cutting back increases my chances of conception somehow, then out, damn spot! Er...cup! And then, once the little swimmers and my little eggs do their duty, well, I will probably go back to half-caff. Still makes me shudder, but what can you do? Then I can have TWO cups for the price of one, AND I won't be dieting. Points? We don't need no stinkin' points!
Onto another topic.....I've really been looking at this whole mercury in vaccines and autism connection. It's concerning, to say the least. Wyatt's just about done with vaccines, but I'm still going to be keeping a close eye on it all.
Hey...are you sitting down? Are you ready for this? I've made a decision. Wyatt will go to public school this year. I'm going to be carefully watching things, though. If at the end of the school year I feel he would have done better at home, well...then he will be homeschooled for 1st grade. But we will see how things go. There is a family in our church (well, several actually) and I just see how close they are despite the public schooling. So, I will try it. I just can't believe how well behaved so many of the children in our church are, coupled with how close the teenagers are to their parents. I want that. Gimme! Not that I want teenagers, mind you. But I want that close knit family.
Hmmm...I think I hear the natives stirring. Time to start my day. Without coffee. Yes, yes, feel free to pity me. I will allow it, just this once.
Onto another topic.....I've really been looking at this whole mercury in vaccines and autism connection. It's concerning, to say the least. Wyatt's just about done with vaccines, but I'm still going to be keeping a close eye on it all.
Hey...are you sitting down? Are you ready for this? I've made a decision. Wyatt will go to public school this year. I'm going to be carefully watching things, though. If at the end of the school year I feel he would have done better at home, well...then he will be homeschooled for 1st grade. But we will see how things go. There is a family in our church (well, several actually) and I just see how close they are despite the public schooling. So, I will try it. I just can't believe how well behaved so many of the children in our church are, coupled with how close the teenagers are to their parents. I want that. Gimme! Not that I want teenagers, mind you. But I want that close knit family.
Hmmm...I think I hear the natives stirring. Time to start my day. Without coffee. Yes, yes, feel free to pity me. I will allow it, just this once.
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