Rough night

Boy, last night we did NOT have a good night. Wyatt cried for close to an hour, and believe me, I was crying right along with him. He's terrified that I'm going to move away from him too. No matter how much I promised him that I wouldn't leave, that I would ALWAYS be with him, he was just....heartbroken. The worst part is that I don't know if Randy even knows if he wants to still be in Wyatt's life, so I can't promise him that Daddy will always love him. Even if it's like a bandaid, I can't lie to my son. It will only be worse in the long run.

I admit...I'm at a loss. I don't know how to handle this. When my parents divorced, I took it in stride. We are in the Bible Belt. Only one of Wyatt's friends has divorced parents, and they live very few miles apart. This is such a new thing to Wyatt. I don't know how to reassure him. I know that, really, it's just going to take time and prayer, but I'm so terrified that this will affect him long term. I mean, look at it this way, his biological "father" has nothing to do with him, and the only man he's ever known as Daddy is leaving too. That's gotta stay with a kid. Granted, he doesn't really ever talk about his bio dad, but I remember him telling me that he was sad because his real dad threw him away. He's smart. I've never spoken a word about bio dad in front of him, much less EVER said he threw him away, but Wyatt picks up on stuff. How do I boost his self esteem? How do I reassure him that *I* will ALWAYS be there?

I spent a lot of last night in prayer. I know that noone can really tell me how to walk this path with Wyatt. I never in a million years thought the divorce would affect him like it has. I know that with the help of friends, and lots of prayer, we will get through this. God is good, and He has my back!

These songs really help me: Mandisa: He Is With You and Casting Crowns Praise You In This Storm