It's a funny thing. On the one hand, I don't care what people think about how I feel or what I think. I know me, and if I'm going to blog, I'm going to put it all out there. I don't like to filter or censor my feelings. I have nothing to hide. But at the same time there are, unfortunately, some people in my life who I know will twist words and use them against me some how. Past behavior has shown that. It took a long time for me to have trust for people in general...and that included my best friends. It was pretty bad. But at the same time, now, I just don't care. If nothing else, I know who my true friends are, and I know how valuable they are. That is a gift~learning not to take people for granted. The person/people who, let's just say, put my guard up, may or may not read my blog. If they do, that's fine, I just don't want anything said here to be used against me somehow. I don't care what people think to an extent, but I deserve to be happy.
Anyway, all of this is to say that I don't know how...published I want this to be. The initial purpose for my blog was to keep family/friends updated all in one fell swoop. Then the blogging community became a support system with the infertility. Now, well....I'm really not sure why I have it anymore, unless it's to just journal for myself. I enjoy writing, and I actually have made some friends through this crazy thing. There are so many websites you can use to promote your blog, and I don't know how involved I want to get with all of that.
All that to say, I will keep the blog, I just don't know what I'm going to do with it
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