I didn't want a roller coaster

So the past few days I've been really emotional. No clue why. I've cried at anything and everything. Yesterday I figured I would take a pregnancy test. Well, I got....an evap line. I mean, that really screws with a person emotionally. I know it was an evap line for sure because I tested again this morning,and it's definitely negative.

People, who try to say the right thing, inevitably end up saying the wrong thing. I know they mean well, but sometimes I really just want to tell them to shove it.

So now, on top of being emotional for some reason (maybe just being stuck in the house), I'm bummed because I had a major sense of hope, and...it's gone.

It doesn't help that there's a girl I feel has made several passive aggressive comments that are directed at me. I try to ignore them, but I can't really ignore her. It's frustrating to say the least. I wish, if she had a problem, she would just say something. I may be reading too much into it, so I'm just patiently waiting to see if yet another thing comes up. If so, I will address it. In the meantime, I just continue to do what's best for our family, and not try to please anyone else. It's a nudge to remember that not everyone is my friend, and to quit expecting to trust someone I haven't known for long.

It's just been a week. I keep doing my best to take comfort in the fact that all of this serves a purpose. God knows what He's doing, and I have to trust Him.

Now, if you will excuse me, I am going to watch a Baby Story and wallow in my misery.