We have a snow day. Really? There was far more grass than snow yesterday. I guess they don't have the equipment to make sure the roads are safe. This is insane. I'm glad Wyatt's home for another day, but it does mess with my routine. It would be nice if he'd sleep past 5:30 so I could at least have my "me" time in the morning. Ah well. These days won't be here forever. One day he will be all grown up and I'll be wishing for them.
Yesterday I changed my work out a little bit to include boxing. It was fun, but I think my arms are going to fall off. Wyatt went to Granddaddy's, so I used that time to get the work out in. I can't wait until it's not so wet outside and I can go back to walking around the yard.
BWAHAHAHAHA I just let the cats out (At their insistence) and 2 of them went running through the door...and slid across the porch. They stopped, looked at me, and poor things were so confused. It was definitely funny though.
Yesterday I really got to thinking. I wish I could make my marriage work. But how do you change your physical feelings for someone? I don't think you can. I've spent the better part of last year trying. There are a lot of things I wish were different, both on my part and his. But I think if we were to change that much, we'd be different people. That's not fair to either of us. I know divorce isn't supposed to be easy, but I really thought if we were at least friends it would be simple, at least emotionally. It's really not. It still hurts, even though I'm not in love. (And I still firmly believe he's not in love with me, he's in love with marriage)
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