Maybe I will finally have some answers!

Well, after STILL having pain yesterday, I went to the GYN. I can't believe not only how strong the pain was this month, but how long is lasted. Usually I deal with it for a day, we were on day 4! And it wasn't my imagination, it woke me up out of a deep sleep last night. Anyway, I went to the GYN, and he asked if I wanted stronger meds to help manage the pain (which I'm not a big fan of...I really don't like taking meds unless there is no other choice) or if I wanted to go the surgery route. He did tell me if I wanted surgery, he wanted to do it sooner rather than later, since it definitely seems to be getting worse.

Soooo....I will be having surgery a week from today. I'm nervous. Not so much about the surgery itself. What really terrifies me is that they won't find anything. Stay with me here. If there is something wrong (like Endometriosis) then they can fix it. And I won't have pain. I can't even imagine anymore what it's like to NOT be doubled over in pain, or curled around a heating pad crying, 2 days a month (sometimes more). Quite honestly, at this point, "curing" the infertility is a nice side effect. I just want the pain gone. If they find endo, and clean it out, then my fertility should be restored. It would be so nice to have answers for the emotional pain, too.

It seems to me that a lot of people think pain like what I've been having is nothing more than bad cramps. Oh my, these are no normal cramps. I kid you not, I have been doubled over crying because of the pain. Pain meds rarely help. Sometimes they take the edge off, but not enough to make me comfortable. Or even enough to make me sleep.

The thought process my dr and I talked about is that perhaps when they did the cervical surgery almost 4 years ago, and the subsequent loss of blood & the treatment for that, led to some scarring. (I remember telling my GYN when we first started trying to conceive that my cramps had progressively gotten worse. She chalked it up to age. I'd like to throttle her for not listening) Once I had the HSG the cramps got much worse. My GYN now and I agree that the dye going through my tubes (one side which was partially blocked) probably pushed some of the scarring to a place that causes increased pain. Because after the HSG, bad cramps became unbearable cramps.

Anyway, all this to say that, a week from today, I will finally have some answers. I hope.