It's go time!

Well, today is the most important day for the whole process (thus far) We are on our way to Columbia for the IUI. (Yes, I'm blogging on the way there. This morning was hectic...helloooo...it's only 5:30) As much as I love y'all, at this point the blog is more for me to remember how I felt during this whole process than it is to keep you informed.

And, how do I feel, you ask? I'm not at all nervous. Last night when I went to bed, I was surprised not to be nervous, and expected to wake up wanting to hurl. Oddly enough, that's not the case. Well, I guess it really isn't odd. I feel like I've been praying constantly this cycle, especially since the follicle scan on Saturday. I'm always saying prayers in my head, and I wholeheartedly believe that has made such a huge difference. I have such a peace about everything, because I know it's in God's hands. Saturday night we had Ladies Night at church, and I know I've got that wonderful group of women lifting me in prayer. So, I'm not at all nervous. And didn't the doctor say the most important thing I could do is relax? If these little twinges in my lower abdoman would go away, that would help, but I kinda like knowing that stuff's going on down there.

Someone asked me how I could say that I'm leaving it in God's hands when I'm using medical science to get pregnant. Well, there is the obvious...He gave them the knowledge and tools. Plus, it's still not an exact science. I mean, there's no way of knowing exactly how many eggs I have, or guaranteeing that they will fertilize or "stick" once they do. That is all up to God. Otherwise, why does this work for some people and not for others? Not that I dont credit Dr Whitman at all....but God also has a part in all this

So, speaking of relax...Last night Wyatt was in his room, and one of those Sense and Spray things was in there (It had been in the guest room, I guess the turd moved it) Anyway, it sprayed right in his eye. There was so much commotion trying to figure out what had happened. I originally thought he hit his eye on the corner of a box. Once I figured out what it was, I carried him to the sink and tried to pour water in it. That didn't go over well. I've never heard such shrill screams coming from a child that small. I knew (hoped) if he'd just open his eyes, it would help. After what seemed like forever, but in reality was 20 minutes or so, just as we were getting ready to go to the ER, I got an idea (The only reason we didn't go in sooner was that there were tears coming out of his eye, so it was flushing) My poor cat...I scooped him up, and made him dance like a puppet across the table. Wyatt opened his eyes to see it, and started laughing. Poor Bailey was doing kicks worthy of Broadway. Can I just tell you how great it feels to hear Wyatt laugh?

I feel like we should be at the doctor's already. It's over 90 minutes away, but I just wish we would get there. Actually, I don't. I'm at so much peace right now, I'm afraid of what I will be feeling after the fact. Even though we don't have to, Randy and I decided I'm pretty much gonna stay in bed today. I just don't want to look back and say "what if". Yay, it's Pamper Mommy Day!! Although, I am kinda bummed to miss Wyatt's soccer game tonight. There will be more, I know.

I dont' know if it's all in my head or not, but I definitely feel "something" going on down there. I guess so, with the possibility of 5 eggs. Thank God she put me on the lowest does of Clomid!

Alright, time to sign off. Gonna read and immerse myself in someone else's life, even if it is fictional

Sooo.....

let me just say, PRAISE GOD it is finally cooling off! Bring on Fall, baby!

Well, yesterday I went in for my follicle scan. Now, keep in mind that not every follicle will create an egg. And, of course, not every egg will fertilize. That being said, I have FIVE follicles. That just brings a whole new level of fear. What if it still doesn't work? What if it does...too well? Once I get pregnant, what if the circlage doesn't work, especially if there's more than one? I know I can only do this one day at a time, and really, although it doesn't seem like it, I'm super relaxed. I just rely on God, and knwo that He has a plan. This has been an incredible lesson in patience. And, I have to admit, I have learned not to take pregnancy/infancy for granted.

Now, just waiting for Tuesday. Tonight I have to take an hcg trigger shot, then Tuesday morning we go in for the IUI!! Bring it on!!!

Finally!

It's beginning to look a lot like Autumn! We are supposed to have temps in the 70s all week. WAHOO! I was starting to lose hope. :) Just in time for me to break out the decorations. Yay! I am excited. Fall is my favorite time of year.

I can't believe how well the house is coming together. It's amazing how a few coats of paint can really transform the look and feel of a room. I can't wait until we get the new floors in so I can post before and after pictures. I really am proud of the work Randy and I have done...and we're nowhere near finished, but it's such a huge transformation already! We're just focusing on the living room and kitchen/dining room right now, but those are the rooms we are in all the time, so it's what's important to us to get done first. The rest of the rooms really just need paint. Oh, and we do need to look into replacing the front door before winter. That isn't a super huge deal though. Really it's the screen door that needs to be replaced. The front door should be good as new with a coat of paint. (Leftover Kills paint from the kitchen...WOOT!)

So, we went to the beach Saturday. We had a lot of fun. Wyatt is such a beach baby. I got some shopping in (Not all for me! We got Christmas started) Randy and I want to try to go back and spend the night in a month or so to get some more Christmas shopping done. I'm actually behind. Usually by now I have a list made up of who is getting what. I'm a slacker!

We planned/booked a mini-vacay in December. Wyatt will miss 2 days of school, but I will get his work. We are going to Great Wolf in Williamsburg. It's perfect in timing, in that I will have just finished the 3rd IUI and will be needing the vacation if it hasn't worked. I have complete faith that it will, but just in case....If we don't get pregnant, or get pregnant with just one, we are going to get a camper. We found one for about 5000. With so much of our family so far away, I really think it's a great idea. And I'm ok taking one infant camping, but no more than that!! Besides, if we have more than one, I really want to trade the truck in for a minivan or a crossover. I don't want to deal with trying to get more than one baby UP into the truck. That thing makes me feel short!

Let's move along, shall we?

So I went in for my baseline ultrasound yesterday. My ovaries are clear, and I was given the go ahead to start Clomid. The ultrasound tech made a gasp noise as she was doing the U/S, and I asked her why. Turns out, my cervix is the smallest she's seen. She said I'd need a circlage. I told her I had been pretty sure I would, so there was no great surprise. I go back in Oct 2 for a Follicle Scan. There, they will see how many mature follicles I have. (Basically, they will estimate how many eggs I will release this cycle) Then they let me know when to do the trigger shot, and 36 hours later I will get pregnant, in theory. Randy can't go to the FS because Wyatt has soccer pictures. Ah well, that's not the one he needs to be at. And who really wants to see their wife's ovaries on a fuzzy black and white TV screen? I did realize yesterday that if I get pregnant this cycle, I will have a June baby. I feel that my odds just skyrocketed :) (I have been pregnant with 3 June babies) So that's what's going on there.

I woke up this morning to find my husband put not one, but TWO coats of paint on the kitchen walls last night. Wow. I can't believe he got so much done. I am spoiled :) Plus, I think he knows to just do what he can to keep me happy when I'm on Clomid. Imagine a lion in a cage at the zoo, and the zookeeper kind of throwing food through the bars. Yeah, that's us right now.

Wyatt's doing really well in soccer. He participates so much more this year than he did last year. School is going ok, this week so far he's had 3 "green faces" (for good behavior). He had one yellow, (or maybe it was red) but that's ok, we are focusing on the green ones. He does really well with reading. His handwriting is really where I see a huge need for improvement. We are working on it!

Bwahahaha

Whoda thought I'd be so happy to see my period? I'm so ready for this month. Bring it on!!! I am gonna tackle this infertility thing. Trish offered to vacuum the cobwebs out of my uterus and put up a "For Rent-9 Month Lease" sign. That is a true friend!

I'm going tomorrow for a baseline ultrasound. I also start Clomid tomorrow (again). Hot flashes and mood swings, here I come! And sometime Friday, my injections shall arrive. Wow. I still...I'm just amazed that this is all really happening. Really, it's in a good way though. When I woke up with cramps this morning, I told myself it's just a step. One more step in the whole process. I keep catching myself looking at baby & maternity stuff again. I'm trying not to, but I don't even think about it. I need to stop the madness!

In the meantime, we are trying to get as much done with the house as possible in the next week and a half. I am going to try to take it easy after the IUI. I know everyone says it doesn't matter, and I do look at all that I did when I was pregnant with Wyatt (Not that it was bad, but I definitely didn't stop EMS), I know that the human body is amazing and can tolerate a lot. But I am going to be hyper-careful. The first person to tell me that I'm being overly cautious will get a cup of coffee dumped on their head. (No, I will not be giving up coffee, however, in every other way I will be a docile, perfect expecting madre)

Wyatt's behavior lately....oy. Duct tape. I think I need to invest in some. Soon.

We had a special visit last night.....

...from the Tooth Fairy!

He was soooo funny. I thought he was handing me a booger, and I was getting ready to tell him to get a tissue when he said "Mommy! It's my tooth!" We were so excited!!!

Now, mind you, this is after bedtime on a Sunday night in the bible belt. Where is a Tooth Fairy to go to get a 5.00 bill? (The going rate for a lost tooth...but in this house, only the first time) NOTHING was open, so the good Fairy left a 2.00 bill. The bad part is that we don't want him to spend it, so I think The Bank of Mom and Dad will cash it in for quarters.

My house is SO cluttered! There is stuff everywhere. I refuse to stress about it. (Ommmm) It will all get put away. Everytime I start to get a little antsy, I will just picture a nursery or something. I really do need to start that Yoga.

Oh, yeah, this all means that Randy is here! They postponed the settlement AGAIN on Friday, but only for a few hours. So he got in about half hour before we had help show up on Saturday. And can I just tell you how humbled I was? There were a few people who showed up from the church I visited ONCE. And they all offered to come back if needed. The HUGE UHaul was unloaded in less than 2 hours. Those people are such wonderful blessings. It's what a church is supposed to be. 

TV shows belong in the toilet

I'm sitting here drinking coffee and watching Boy Meets World, which is the typical start to my morning. I was thinking about why I stay so attached to this show. I think, actually, it's because there really aren't any family friendly sitcoms. There's reality TV everywhere, and some of it is family friendly. But nothing like the good ones. Home Improvement, The Nanny, they all seem to be things of the past. Prime time TV is a joke.

Anyway, that's my rant for today, I suppose.

I am so excited!! Today is Friday, and that means that my husband will FINALLY be home, I will finally have all our stuff, and we can get settled. I can make this place a home. (Not to mention settlement is today, so I can go grocery shopping) Wyatt can't wait either :)

I can't wait for my period to start. Then I get to start the whole process for the IUI. I feel so positive about this. I really do. I'm fully prepared that it may not work the first cycle. But at least now I feel like I'm DOING something about the infertility. I did catch myself looking at baby stuff yesterday and planning a nursery. I try not to do that, because that just gets a little emotional.

Ah well, it's time to get my day going. Monster child needs to get to school.