Maybe it will be more interesting? Who knows. I would like people to note this is THREE blogs in one day! HA! Betcha never thought I could do it did you? Of course, if you've read all 3 in one sitting, I probably need to get you some coffee.
Wyatt has a 2 hour delay tomorrow. Really? I can't figure out what for. Pure insanity. There isn't even ice on our cars. Nuts nuts nuts.
So, what is love? I've been told that love is a choice, which would mean you chose who you love. But it's not always that easy. Doesn't there have to be something? I do have kind feelings towards Randy, but...as much as I sometimes wish I did, I dont love him. I've tried, honestly I have. And I know (hope) that we will always be friends. There is no ill will. I just wish I could make it more. But more often than not it seems like we don't even have anything to talk about.
Anyway, this wasn't supposed to be one of THOSE entries.
OH!!! I got ALL the pictures on one of the memory cards uploaded! WAHOO!! They are also organized by album. Tomorrow I will start the other memory card. Progress! And if it wasn't for the fact that I blog about it, and therefore feel accountable, I never would have finished it. So for all you readers out there (both of you!) thanks :)
One of my favorite movies is on....Where The Heart Is. I love this movie. A lot. I shall watch it. Perhaps I will check in with y'all tomorrow!
Showing posts with label snow day. Show all posts
Showing posts with label snow day. Show all posts
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Yet again...
We have a snow day. Really? There was far more grass than snow yesterday. I guess they don't have the equipment to make sure the roads are safe. This is insane. I'm glad Wyatt's home for another day, but it does mess with my routine. It would be nice if he'd sleep past 5:30 so I could at least have my "me" time in the morning. Ah well. These days won't be here forever. One day he will be all grown up and I'll be wishing for them.
Yesterday I changed my work out a little bit to include boxing. It was fun, but I think my arms are going to fall off. Wyatt went to Granddaddy's, so I used that time to get the work out in. I can't wait until it's not so wet outside and I can go back to walking around the yard.
BWAHAHAHAHA I just let the cats out (At their insistence) and 2 of them went running through the door...and slid across the porch. They stopped, looked at me, and poor things were so confused. It was definitely funny though.
Yesterday I really got to thinking. I wish I could make my marriage work. But how do you change your physical feelings for someone? I don't think you can. I've spent the better part of last year trying. There are a lot of things I wish were different, both on my part and his. But I think if we were to change that much, we'd be different people. That's not fair to either of us. I know divorce isn't supposed to be easy, but I really thought if we were at least friends it would be simple, at least emotionally. It's really not. It still hurts, even though I'm not in love. (And I still firmly believe he's not in love with me, he's in love with marriage)
Yesterday I changed my work out a little bit to include boxing. It was fun, but I think my arms are going to fall off. Wyatt went to Granddaddy's, so I used that time to get the work out in. I can't wait until it's not so wet outside and I can go back to walking around the yard.
BWAHAHAHAHA I just let the cats out (At their insistence) and 2 of them went running through the door...and slid across the porch. They stopped, looked at me, and poor things were so confused. It was definitely funny though.
Yesterday I really got to thinking. I wish I could make my marriage work. But how do you change your physical feelings for someone? I don't think you can. I've spent the better part of last year trying. There are a lot of things I wish were different, both on my part and his. But I think if we were to change that much, we'd be different people. That's not fair to either of us. I know divorce isn't supposed to be easy, but I really thought if we were at least friends it would be simple, at least emotionally. It's really not. It still hurts, even though I'm not in love. (And I still firmly believe he's not in love with me, he's in love with marriage)
Monday, January 10, 2011
Its....Pajama Day!!!!
Good morning, y'all! They closed school today because a snow cloud sneezed and we got a dusting. Oh, wait, there is more snow falling now, so we will see what happens. Actually, I really don't blame them. We are supposed to get a lot of ice accumulation too, and last time that happened, people didn't have power for days. (So, um, that means no blog, just so you know) I have a well. Did you know you can't run water with no power when you have a well? Think about that for a minute...
Today is pajama and movie day, assuming we keep power. If it goes out for a while, then we will make the loooong trek over to Granddad's (He has a generator, thus, flushable toilets...and heat!) I do love days like this. This is why I no longer want to work EMS. I can stay home, curl up with the boy, some hot chocolate and books and movies.
So I did really well with Weight Watchers yesterday. I was able to stay exactly where I was supposed to with points. I remember last time it was hard, because I had left over points at the end of the day and had to binge to get them in. I do think I like this new Points Plus plan. It seems healthier. Plus, if I'm really hungry, I can eat fruit for 0 points, where before it would be at least one. I'm liking it so far!!! (She says optimistically on day 2)
I think today I will work on uploading pictures. Wyatt is doing his own thing for the moment, so I might as well do mine.
Today is pajama and movie day, assuming we keep power. If it goes out for a while, then we will make the loooong trek over to Granddad's (He has a generator, thus, flushable toilets...and heat!) I do love days like this. This is why I no longer want to work EMS. I can stay home, curl up with the boy, some hot chocolate and books and movies.
So I did really well with Weight Watchers yesterday. I was able to stay exactly where I was supposed to with points. I remember last time it was hard, because I had left over points at the end of the day and had to binge to get them in. I do think I like this new Points Plus plan. It seems healthier. Plus, if I'm really hungry, I can eat fruit for 0 points, where before it would be at least one. I'm liking it so far!!! (She says optimistically on day 2)
I think today I will work on uploading pictures. Wyatt is doing his own thing for the moment, so I might as well do mine.
Saturday, February 13, 2010
Some ramblings
First of all, let me just say.... I AM SO SICK OF SNOW!!!!
OK, now that we got that straight. I worked a shift this week that was non-stop. I actually had to go back in to do a trip sheet because I didn't have time to finish it during my shift. And still, nothing I did made a difference. A couple of nursing home calls, and a working code. I made not one iota of difference, aside from providing comfort. And, for the first time ever, I heard someone (A lady in her 70s) tell me that Prednisone made her feel like she could "lick the world". This is the wisdom being handed down for generations!
I feel better about work. I think I looked to it to solve problems, and, well, that's just not going to happen. I just need to accept it as it is. I am very blessed in the fact that I don't *need* to work outside the home. But it does distract me from things that I think I'm missing out on at home.
I've done a lot of thinking about the whole fertility thing. And a lot of praying. I think that, for now, it's just going to go to the back burner. There are so many other things I'd like to concentrate on. I want to go back and re-read my blog on goals for the New Year. But I know my home needs to be more organized. It's not a big one, so it doesn't take much for the clutter to make you feel like you are getting pushed right back out the door! And I don't want that. I want my home to be peaceful. (Well, as peaceful as possible with the zoo under the roof) And I really want to be selfish for a little while. I want to spend more family time. Randy and I had wanted to do a date night once a month. Even if it turned into a date night in if we couldn't get a sitter, then so be it. Just something so we are doing more than passing each other in the hallway. And I do want to get healthier before we try to take on the fertility process. Both mind and body (No smart comments, please!!!)
I see so many weekend trips we could take. And I want to do that. I really want to get my focus back on my family. I lost that somewhere. Maybe it's under the snow. (Did I mention how sick of snow I am)
Anyway, for my sanity, the fertility stuff will wait. In the meantime, I will pray that it happens naturally. And I feel such a relief over making that decision. Maybe at some point in the next few months, I will get the urge to start, but I need to concentrate on the family I have now. And I need to take care of myself better before I start doing all that stuff to my body.
On a totally different topic....Someone recently told me that she finds my blog inspirational. That meant so much to me. I certainly don't intend for it to be. It's just a way for me to get my ramblings & vents out. I think that speaks to the school of thought that you never know whose life you will affect in any given day. Lindsey is someone we are getting to know better, and I'm happy for it. She is truly a nice person. She and her other half were such a big help in getting us moved in. She reminds me of...well...me a few years ago. I'm really looking forward to getting to know her better and developing a friendship with her.
2 more weeks and I will be in MD. I"m bummed, cause my Trish works my free day down there, but...what can ya do? I miss her terribly. There is so much lately that I've just felt I needed her to be with me for. She just...I don't know how to explain it. But she puts things into perspective for me. I am really blessed to have her in my life.
Alright, my coffee cup is running low. And this is my last day for coffee, as I've officially signed up for weight watchers. Now I must meal plan. *Sigh*
OK, now that we got that straight. I worked a shift this week that was non-stop. I actually had to go back in to do a trip sheet because I didn't have time to finish it during my shift. And still, nothing I did made a difference. A couple of nursing home calls, and a working code. I made not one iota of difference, aside from providing comfort. And, for the first time ever, I heard someone (A lady in her 70s) tell me that Prednisone made her feel like she could "lick the world". This is the wisdom being handed down for generations!
I feel better about work. I think I looked to it to solve problems, and, well, that's just not going to happen. I just need to accept it as it is. I am very blessed in the fact that I don't *need* to work outside the home. But it does distract me from things that I think I'm missing out on at home.
I've done a lot of thinking about the whole fertility thing. And a lot of praying. I think that, for now, it's just going to go to the back burner. There are so many other things I'd like to concentrate on. I want to go back and re-read my blog on goals for the New Year. But I know my home needs to be more organized. It's not a big one, so it doesn't take much for the clutter to make you feel like you are getting pushed right back out the door! And I don't want that. I want my home to be peaceful. (Well, as peaceful as possible with the zoo under the roof) And I really want to be selfish for a little while. I want to spend more family time. Randy and I had wanted to do a date night once a month. Even if it turned into a date night in if we couldn't get a sitter, then so be it. Just something so we are doing more than passing each other in the hallway. And I do want to get healthier before we try to take on the fertility process. Both mind and body (No smart comments, please!!!)
I see so many weekend trips we could take. And I want to do that. I really want to get my focus back on my family. I lost that somewhere. Maybe it's under the snow. (Did I mention how sick of snow I am)
Anyway, for my sanity, the fertility stuff will wait. In the meantime, I will pray that it happens naturally. And I feel such a relief over making that decision. Maybe at some point in the next few months, I will get the urge to start, but I need to concentrate on the family I have now. And I need to take care of myself better before I start doing all that stuff to my body.
On a totally different topic....Someone recently told me that she finds my blog inspirational. That meant so much to me. I certainly don't intend for it to be. It's just a way for me to get my ramblings & vents out. I think that speaks to the school of thought that you never know whose life you will affect in any given day. Lindsey is someone we are getting to know better, and I'm happy for it. She is truly a nice person. She and her other half were such a big help in getting us moved in. She reminds me of...well...me a few years ago. I'm really looking forward to getting to know her better and developing a friendship with her.
2 more weeks and I will be in MD. I"m bummed, cause my Trish works my free day down there, but...what can ya do? I miss her terribly. There is so much lately that I've just felt I needed her to be with me for. She just...I don't know how to explain it. But she puts things into perspective for me. I am really blessed to have her in my life.
Alright, my coffee cup is running low. And this is my last day for coffee, as I've officially signed up for weight watchers. Now I must meal plan. *Sigh*
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Walkin' In A Winter Wonderland
Snow, snow everywhere! Wyatt woke up begging to go out. He made it down the front steps, and he was begging to come back in. Mocha, on the other hand, literally LEAPT for joy out there. Which did my heart good, as she hasn't been very playful with everything going on. Then...wonder of wonders....she came inside and ate for the first time since Sam died. Oh, it makes me feel so good to see it!
So, on the list for today....Get laundry done, get our room all put away, and organize the kitchen. Tomorrow I want to tackle Wyatt's room and my craft room. I should probably, some time today, shovel our insanely long driveway so my husband can come home tomorrow. And I have to go to work, too. For now, though, there is coffee to be drunk. And drink it I will!
Is it Spring yet?
So, on the list for today....Get laundry done, get our room all put away, and organize the kitchen. Tomorrow I want to tackle Wyatt's room and my craft room. I should probably, some time today, shovel our insanely long driveway so my husband can come home tomorrow. And I have to go to work, too. For now, though, there is coffee to be drunk. And drink it I will!
Is it Spring yet?
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